I Said I Would…
By Lezli Censullo
I had said I would write the blog for last week, and then I didn’t.
I had thought I’d make sure to have it written for Sunday of this week — it’s okay to skip a week occasionally. Life happens. Keep it easy. Don’t stress.
We are kind to one another.
And then I didn’t. Again.
I kind of blew it.
So, why haven’t I gotten the blog written?
What’s been going on in the last couple of weeks that I couldn’t find an hour to sit down and do something I enjoy doing; that I feel a joyous commitment to, that not only connects me to my Self but to our wonderful community of Gardeners? Where was the still point I needed to sit down with myself and write to you, my dear friends?
It was elusive, it was. That still point.
But, this morning, sitting outside on this holy piece of land we steward, feeling Mama Earth holding me, feeling the soft, sultry carresses of the breezes blowing through my hair, the sun dappling and lighting little healing fires on my skin, watching the water ripple, listening for the birds — my still point has arrived. And it is my pleasure to share it with you, fellow Gardeners.
You see, there was indeed all sorts of life stuff that happened in the interim of my absence: a little bit of surgery, illness of family members, adventures and holidays, escapism of several kinds, a little bit of overwhelm and some emotional exhaustion. And in this quiet and still moment, I understand that this life stuff is What It is All About, indeed.
Life isn’t always easy. It doesn’t always go according to plan. Our responses and reactions aren’t always what we imagine our most perfect selves doing. So, as we head into high summer, let’s give ourselves permission to be human, to be imperfect, to “blow it” occasionally. And let’s have the faith to know that with a little help from our friends (and our guides and our ancestors and our spirt allies) that the Still Point of our Soul will find us and that it will be just in time for Love.
Are you human, too? I’d really like to know.